so um, i have some news:) My 1st fanfic chapter got rejected( bastards) even thought i know it was my fault. I have so many thoughts rushing thru my head its not even funny. And if i dont put it on paper right away i will forget it. Seriously!
Meah, i promise i will changed it anyways, got a better idea:)
Other than that...Happy bday to a special someone that was part of my life, for a long time.
Like Narcis said. I will never deny, or resent my past.She was part of it , and I felt it would be nice to tell her "Happy Birthday" since she is turning 19.
Many things were said. I dont regret them because i feel that , they somehow proved my independence , my maturity (up to a certain level, everything beyond that , I dont take responsability for:)) , but I am also sorry because, I feel that two people that have manners, should never speak like that. Especially , since we both knew each other so well. We knew the low blows and I think we kind of got really low , this time. It felt more like I was breaking up with a boyfriend ( you know, throwing tantrums like a crazy kid, throwing diferent objects at each other), than what it really was.I decided to move on with my life , and let her be.( it wasnt easy , but i cant fight against time, just go with it.)
I can be very possesive , you know.

Regarding the earlier post.. I posted it just to let it all out. I guess I forgott to write about the part where , you can say I got my happy ending.
I wanted my story out there because I am pretty sure I am not the first one that went thru it and I probably wont the the last either, because this world is full of cowards.
I cant say I am living the "American Dream" but, I honestly dont think I want it anymore, anyways. There is to much pain , just because of this "Dream" that most people , end up despising because it steals their life, their years and their emotions. There are just to many meanings to the "American Dream " that I honestly think , that there is nothing left of it anymore.
I would love for you guys to argue that with me, actually I dare you guys to argue that with me:)