I feel like everything is crashing on me. Fast and hard. I supposed it's been a long time waiting. It is just sad to see that people dont want to be nice anymore. TO help people without expecting anything in return. Not carrying about veterans and how after they give a part of their life to the military, some just dont give a flying fuck about them. We are stuck at a point in our process to buy a house , where I never would've guessed we would get stuck. Alex is in Iraq and here I am waiting for a phone call that can either make my day , or have everything that we worked for so hard seem like a waste of time . Alex being away for a year and me dealing to deal with this! I dont even know what this is anymore, I guess it is everything! I feel completely lost. So many thoughts running through my head and I feel like I am about to give up at any point. I just wonder where that point is , and how much longer I can keep going .