I used to think that friend...good friends are supposed to be forever, right? ( wrong again! Dang it). I cant say i was always a good friend . i get gery posessive and very selfish when it comes to friends, my firends. Give all or nothing and i want everything i give to be given back to me also( shame on me hehe..) Wasnt always the most outgoing person because i dodnt had any siblings , si i kinda kept everything to myself as you can imagine. Growing up around kids because my mom was a kindergarten manager didnt make things any easier either.. I meet Andreea while in kindergarten, of course( what maybe 4 or 5 years old?). Since then we were inseparable, joined at the hip you might add *giggle*
I am lucky enought to say that i had 4 girls (2 that are still in Romania and the others are in France and Austria) that i can call best friend eve to this day. I have never thought that a friendship can be this strong that even after years and years of not seing each other , that feeling of assurance and love is still there..it might fade but itll never dissapear .Tha someone is capable of bonding so strong with another being. For me friend relationship is higher love( even thou Plato though that Homosexuality was the higher love...well i guess lol *giggle* again)
As years passed by i grew and i started to see that life doesnt always get you what you want. I lost Malina to France and Ana to Austria and it was hard because i was depending on them. I needed them in my life, but i had to get over it. They both have been out of the country for more than 5 years now....in five years you think you will get over it , that you will replace that someone that at one point has a important place in your heart.Ha ! I was wrong again! Well, i did replace them but never forgott them.
Ana still comes home and visits but Malina in her 7 years never came back to visit...we lost any for of communication for a while , untill i got an email from her inviting me to join Facebook( hail to the evolution of technology). We "met" again.
It felt like we started right where we left off! It is an amazing feeling to still have the same confidence in her and to be able to tell her anything that i have that is bothering me without thinking that she wont understand me . She knows, problably out of all my girlfriends she knows best what i am going thru .
She gave me the bestest news ever! That she will come and see me this summer! But i asked myself...what if i changed so much that we wont have anything in common?
I know we both change because we cant do anything about it , but what if..? its been 7 years for Godness Gracious! we were 12 when she left i think!
But i hope that Feeling is stil there!!!!!!
She told me something that i didnt really expected. People may change( psysical appearance) , feelings may change, but a character never does! and i thought that her character must have been that something that got me so close to her in the first place. We just mold so that we can fit in !
Huh big relief there !
I dont really thing i have lost my character either. But sometimes changes are so big that you might not recognize what you left behind...