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Long day at work...almost over though...its 4 o`clock and i have to go to the bank also .
God, this is sooo annoying...reading this book over and over again .I have never read books and i honestly cant get enought of the feelings that this book ot should i say books give away!!!!! Argh! It may sound like im obssesed , prolly i am ..but i love the books. I need to find something else to read soon ,because this is getting outta control. Cant wait for "New Moon " though hihihihih.
Ok...getting to more serious matters. As i said i dont really like being crossed . And when my feelings are being hurt or when my trust is being squished i kinda tend to get in my shell and use all my fury against that particular someone.And this time it happened to be my best friend.I used to be a trusting person, and that came right back at me so many times . Since growing up i kinda started to see that people are not always what they seem, and that maybe i should keep my eyes opened...no matter if they are your friends.
As I said, this time it happened to be her. I know i should not throw away the frienship that we had , so easily , but its better this way. This way i wont keep thinking about what i lost and the fact that i wasnt there to maybe help even though i really dont think i could have helped much. People changed , and she changed too, not as much though. She is still the same imature kid that i left home , in some views , at least and she showed it to me wen she sent me to hell last time we spoke . For me that was it. She never realized that all the questions that i was asking her were for her own good, and that i was worrying for her...and she sent me to hell...what a child..i would have given everything i had for her . Dont want it to sound like a blackmail or anything. But for me friendship is the most important and i really thought that i could not survive without having hers in my life. Surprisngly ...it is not as hard as i thought it would be..like a friend said.."i have lost many more before whats one more?" i learned to stuck it up and go on..and i learned that i can survive without so many things i thought i couldnt .We all have to make sacrifices some day, at some point. And besides that...friends come and go , a thing that the Marine Coprs thought me . They might be here one day, be in Hawaii the next lol (like Juls and Nathan and MY little princess, their daughter Jonviev), so theres no point in making real friends if they are going to leave after all, and no im not bipolar, nor depressed if thats what youre thinking...i just learned that life isnt always pink and that shocked me a little ehehehe!