ah..i was talking to someone yesterday and he told me that he learned a lot from me and that he really thinks that i am strong because i am here in the States and that i am trying to build my life here. Heh.. i don't know if i am strong , i just think that its my will for surviving and showing people that i can get thru this. I was always a stubborn child. The more you told me , i wont be able to do something, the more i tried to prove you wrong.
I have pride, and that will always get me thru all the obstacles life my throw my way. Some people said o don't have" balls" and that i need to be more self confident..I always thought , when i was a kid that i am selfish because i would only think about myself. I always had to step back and think things over before i took a decision , because i never wanted to hurt the people that were around me, because i know i can be a total bitch and i can ignore others without even thinking about it. I dont want to do thought because that wouldn't be a changed me. That would not be an improved me at all. I want to grow in a beautiful and thoughtful human being. I hate the ugliness of the soul when you are selfish, the feeling of being alone even if you are surrounded by many people . Being ugly inside doesn't bring happiness at all.
And i want all the happiness i can have and that i can spread around me:)