I cant just freaking stop thinking about it. This whole thing is messing with my head ! He did a pretty good job at showing me that people change at the sight of money. I really thought he was my friend , my closest one , for that matter.After all that we`ve been thru he had the balls not to come and see me ! After Ive been next to him when his mom died, far away from home , after i felt like i was losing something important too. I was there when everything happened. He was there when mom got married! I fucking Hate YOU Dan ! I hope that one day you will be man enough and tell me your real]l reasons for lieing to me ! I hope that someday you will realize that you have become exactly the type of person that a few years you hated with a passion! Do you hate yourself now?!

Ok. there is seldom times where I dislike people. even if I do , I know first impressions are good for shit. So I try to give people a second change. But some people are just AHH!!!

If I could i would rip his balls!!Bastard! I am so pissed!
I feel like I am losing Nona and I dont want to. We barely see each other anymore. I know she is busy with work , and her husband, since he is in fucking Dayshop!
I just feel like im losing friends , without even doing anything. It seems I am good at it too! Go I am so stupid!!!I nedd someone to come slapt me. This shit always ends on a bad note. I am tired on thinking that there is anyone out there that is meant to be called a best friend!