I thought I knew what friends are. At least what friends meant to me.
Now I am not so sure. The one thing that I hate most is being lied to and I have this nagging feeling that that's whats being going on for quite a while now. I know there is no way we can be the friends that we were , but I just wish that Dan would have the balls to admit everything . Him and a couple of other people.
Why am I so kin on insisting that we should be like before , i really dont know. Perhaps it is because i thought we were really good friends and that even thought almost 5 years passed , i had this wild wish that maybe we would stay the same after all.
Just punch me , right?!
I have great friends here , really really great but somehow they will never be able to fill up the empty space that my old ones left. It's obvious that they all have moved on from what happened when i went home.Probably even cracking some jokes about it who knows. I mean how awesome does it feel to stand up your best friend after 5 years?
I wish I was better prepared for the low blow that I got .I wish I wasn't such a possessive bitch and just let go of my past and my friends easier.