I never really had to try to not do anything so hard in my life. I swear I am really trying but its like it keeps coming back just to test my patience. I sometimes wonder what am I supposed to do ..just keep taking or just fucking going nuts . i know that if something like that would happen , oh man, just like with Andreea and Dani. Ill say stuff just because I am mad , and then ill be the one who over analyzes shit.What the hell am I supposed to do?

I miss Seattle. i miss the green , hell I even miss the rain. I cant wait to get back there. I honestly had enough of this heat and the dessert.