Seems that I am not who i thought i was. I mean everything now is blurred. Like everything I thought is not more..i feel empty and tired. Very tired and wanting to be done with everything. No motivation , no desire for anything . People talk about sparks , and people having that certain spark. I have lost mine , as I lost myself. Gloomy day for me. To finally realize that hardships bring people down, that it makes even the happiest person realize that there is nothing out there that can make us truly happy.