Love and my everyday thoughts..

I wish I would have the time and lay down on paper everything. My feelings, pour out my soul, who I am ! I wish I would have the courage to lay it out there for everyone to read me like a open book.
I have regrets, I love and I will have questions that will probably never get answered. I feel like I dont belong anywhere..like I have a place where I have to be and yet I am somewhere where I dont belong. It is very hard to explain, when everyday you wake up and have the strange feeling that you are just going through motions .Like I am not doing whatever I am supposed to be doing. Weird? Oh yes! Annoying? Double yes!
I imagine myself in a forest, where I can only hear the wind and a river close by. A night sky full of stars , full of stories that dont belong to me , yet I listen nonetheless. Stories about legends, about brave men, about humanity being pure and honest. A fire that never dies, that will always have the power to draw me in and make me look deep into my soul and try to discover who am I exactly. I wish I can explain what a weird feeling this is.
I long for a simple life, where I am not surrounded by technology , traffic, and people that only care about themselves . I want to be able to go outside and my backyard to be a forest full of pine trees. I want to go out at night and see the sky full of stars and giving each one a name and doing the same thing the very next night. I want to be surrounded by nature. By the sounds of nature. Nothing can compare to the calm that nature brings to my soul. The sound of complete and utter silence. That's what I feel home should be. That's where I gravitate towards.